Disappointment

Sometimes I wish I had something, just anything that kept my happy. I hate having to look in the mirror just to be disappointed with everything I see. All I see is someone who's ugly, worthless, stupid, her hair doesn't look right, her stomach is huge, her complexion makes her look like pizza face. All it does is hurt to look in the mirror. I can see both the physical and emotional scars there. All I see is damage and the things I find to w true. Even when I am told differently nothing can really make me believe those words and I just get so tired of hearing it and not believing it. I'm tired of seeing that tired girl but nothing will wake me up from this daze I am in, this dark scene is all I see. I find myself constantly being tired, both fatigued but tired of society and my life. I am not saying I would ever give up the life I have, I just want it to change. I just want to be happy for once, have fun for the first time in years. Sometimes I wish people could see that from me..